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My brother, if only I could talk to you!  I can't agree more.  I too have studied for years alone.  Many different doctrines as it would seem false to me in all of Gods love that he would turn against any of man kind that is not Christianized, so I have studied and continue to, and see the same threads through out.  I have since I was a small girl not worried about money or materialism but wanting to enlighten people to pure love, Gods love, and to make a safe place when the hard times come. I feel that need so urgently upon me now it's like a fever.  Yet the irony is that it takes money to become self sufficient.  Almost hilarious isn't it.   Matter it none, when the time comes, all I can do is be compassionate and loving and live as I have been.  To truly live as Jesus would isn't to exhalt oneself for going to church and condemn others souls but to judge not and to help all who need it.  Cloth the naked, feed the hungry, shelter the homeless, and remember to listen to the children, they are wise in their innocence. :)  Bless you my friend.  Good luck in the times ahead.

Debra, I don't know what state you are in, and I know how difficult it is to be in the waiting stages for disability to come through.  I can tell you from personal experience that When I was waiting it was actually social services through public assistance who helped us get by.  Barely, but we made it.  In fact they were the ones who told me to apply.  I have several diagnoses, and it took over a year, but I got an attorney after my first appeal.  You are a strong woman, or you would not be here now being able to tell us your situation.  If nothing else they should be able to point you in the direction of local agencies that can help you get by in the mean time.  I hope that helps a little.  Good luck and God Bless.  You are in my prayers.

 Honestly,

Dannielle Lionhearted

I am always amazed at the judgementalness of others.  We all make mistakes and instead of being gentle and letting them know what happened people yell scream and judge one another.  Love is so simple to give.  Just give of yourself in the smallest way and it can change a life.  Know thyself truly, then open your mind and do not JUDGE.  It is simple.  To me at least.  But I take the harshness of the world and people around me and just do my best to return kindness.  It does no good to return destruction with destruction.  Each persons perception of right and wrong is dependent on the view they have of the subject and from where each person stands a thing can look very different.  It doesnt make it less true. When will we as a whole realize that the view we have has other sides as well and the multidementional whole is the real truth so not to judge, critisize or be cruel to another for any reason.  I dream of such a peaceful day.

I am in need but my need is going to then turn around and help others.  Here is why I need help and how I'm going to pay that help forward. I'm single disabled mom of five, three of which I have custody of, one of which is on ssi for severe learning issues of his own. I have twin daughters that are 12, my son is 11, and my twin sons (whom aren't in my custody) are 9.  I had all 5 kids in 3 yrs 5 mos. I was recently homeless and it has taken all of what little we have to get into this house. I have no money to pay bills, get through the month, have gasoline or pay the debts i've accrued in the last two months from our situation. I so desperately need help to not end up on the street again. We have been through enough trauma and loss. We have been homeless and if we don't get help will be again very soon.  I am looking at bankrupcy just so we can buy a home and not be homeless again!  My credit is below a joke, and bankrupcy will clear it up enough that we could get a high interest rate mortgage along with a first time homebuyer and a disabled loan in a couple of years.  We have had 31 people die in 10 years.  Some of which were my father, my husband was murdered, my mother and father in law. My childrens dad is an abusive dead beat dad who very very seldom contacs them, and it's not from lack of ways to do so.  They have suffered far too much loss and trauma and so have I, and with my physical "challenges" (I have a rod in my spine for scoliosis, still have curvature, facet disease, osteoarthritis, bad feet and knees, need knee surgury, and later replacement, fibromyalgia, thyroiditis, ADHD, PTSD, anxiety, and hmmm.. and strong will to overcome it all doesn't count. lol)it makes my children have a harder time of things, even though they get all the love and support they need, they just can't always have me up and around all the time. This has made my childrens life harder, but they know they are very loved and I work for them to have as normal a life as poverty level income and single parent home and two "ability challenged" or disabled individuals in the home can allow.  As well as having lost custody of their brothers and having lost the only father they knew to a violent crime. I just found out that I have to have surgury on my neck for discs that are moving dangerously close to the spinal cord as well as knee surgury this year.  I am a proud woman and  being on the system takes something out of me.  I am working with voc rehab to go to university while I am working on rehabilitating.  I desperately desire being able to make a good living, and owning a home of our own, establishing decent credit, being able to pay my bills on time, and having food in the cupboards without concern.  We always share what we do have with people.  Whether it be our home, a ride, our food, it doesn't matter.  We believe in being what we want to see in the world.  Now I have had to lower my pride and ask for help.    I am in the early stages of starting a non profit organization for trauma victims like myself and many others on this site.  If I succeed, there will finally be someone out there who has been there to help when a loved one dies or a woman is beaten, or there is no job to pay the rent and the kids need to eat, and the wife is sick, what do I do?!?!?  I have been there, and I want to help.  I am hopeful and excited.  If I can manage to get the non profit organization off the ground we would be able to help so many not repeat the cycle of trauma by making poor choices when in that state of shock that comes from such bad situations.  Just to help another is more than enough reward, and to be able to get through school while healing my body, would be dreams come true for my children and myself.  We all hope desperately for the stability of a home of our own and not having to worry about money from day to day or week to week, and then to be able to pass that along!  I can't even describe the joy!  Blessings to all of you!  :)  Thank you for your time!  :)